Many times the cares of this life pushes us off focus, and/or the press of activity causes us to drift in our Christian walk. We end up sliding into a season when we are really not open and honest with God, others, or ourselves. We included lessons, activities, ministry and connection times during this retreat to help you evaluate where you are in your walk with God. How “sincere” is your devotion to God?
We are able to love God, because He first loved us. He loved us unreservedly and extravagantly. Can you sense His love for you right now? He loved you so much that He gave you everything He was, everything He had. It has often been said that if you were the only person on this earth, He would have willingly, even gladly given His all…just for you.
And I ask him that, with both feet planted firmly on love, you’ll be able to take in, with all Christians, the extravagant dimensions of Christ’s love. Reach out and experience the breadth! Test its length! Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God. God can do anything, you know — far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around, but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. Eph 3:17-20 (Msg)
I have a strong sense that some of you are at a place in your lives where it’s difficult for you to receive God’s love and nearly impossible for you to return it with sincere devotion. That’s because of father wounds…wounds caused in your childhood and early adulthood by men and in some cases women, who hurt you rather than nurtured you.
You may have had withdrawn, passive fathers who were there physically but missing in action emotionally. A father or mother’s silence can be just as devastating as any kind of abuse. It leaves a child wondering; “do I matter?”… “do they love me?”… “Am I worthy of being loved?”
You may be from a family ripped apart by divorce. When a child’s father leaves, in spite of what their father may say or the time he spends with them on weekends, the roaring silence of Dad’s missing presence during the week causes a child to think, “did Dad leave because I didn’t mean anything to him? … Surely he wouldn’t have left if he loved me… I have must done something wrong… I must not be worth much.”
You may have been abused verbally, physically or even sexually by your father, mother or other family members, and you are thinking right now that a passive father would have been a blessing. The message of “you’re a piece of worthless junk that no one could love” was violently pounded into you until it became the overriding truth of your life. How can you receive love from another if someone from your family says you’re a piece of worthless trash?
What do you do with deep wounds within?
1. Pray…ask God to lead you in the process of healing.
- Face the truth. When I bring up father wound issues I have often heard, “well, my parents did the best they could.” Defending our parents is a natural response born out of love, but it’s also used to avoid feeling the pain. We are hurt deepest by the people we love and need the most, and there is no deeper wound than the one that comes from our father. Running or denial won’t resolve a father wound; it must be faced.
- Receive meaningful touches. You need to be hugged consistently and often. If you’re not, begin creating a support network of people who will touch you in a godly, loving manner. Oh yes, and this needs to be reciprocal.
- Hear spoken messages. Really hear, listen to people who tell you they love you. Don’t shrug it off. Receive the words. You need to hear the words “I love you” consistently and often. And if your circle of friends and family don’t say the words…train them to do so.
- Journal your emotions, the Lord may show you some issues that you need to deal with. Bitterness of heart often accompanies the pain of rejection, and the Lord could reveal the need to forgive your Dad and shower him with grace. Allow yourself to grieve what you didn’t have with your father; doing so validates what you went through and provides an outlet for the pent up emotion within.
- Write a letter to express how you were hurt. Tell your father what you needed from him growing up; how you wanted to hear him tell you he loved you more often, or feel his touch, or how you wish you could have had more time together. Say this in a non-condemning way. What’s done is done, and the purpose of this letter is not to throw stones, but to heal. Then, forgive your father. Your forgiveness will cost you a lot, so don’t write these words lightly.
- We do this so that we can begin to fill the empty chamber of our heart that can be filled by one person. This chamber is set at the center core of the heart, and it’s marked “For God alone.” No person, thing, or experience has the ability to touch or fill this part of the heart. It is here in our journey where we turn toward His throne room. When we receive His love that’s when we can return it with Sincere Devotion…
Love GOD, your God, with your whole heart: love him with all that’s in you, love him with all you’ve got! Deut 6:5 (Msg)
Devotion means ardent, often selfless affection and dedication. It’s a word that is often used to describe our “quiet times” with the Lord. And although they may be quiet, there should be nothing passive about devotion to God. Devotion should express our warmth of feeling, our passion for God. Yes, devotion is expressing our strong feelings with fervent enthusiasm, but it is also BEING consecrated and dedicated.
So don’t just do something, sit there!
Luke 10:38-42: When Jesus entered the village of Bethany, a woman by the name of Martha welcomed him and made him feel quite at home. She had a sister, Mary, who sat before the Master, hanging on every word he said. But Martha was pulled away by all she had to do in the kitchen. Later, she stepped in, interrupting them. “Master, don’t you care that my sister has abandoned the kitchen to me? Tell her to lend me a hand.” The Master said, “Martha, dear Martha, you’re fussing far too much and getting yourself worked up over nothing. One thing only is essential, and Mary has chosen it — it’s the main course, and won’t be taken from her.”
We usually give Martha a bad time over this passage. But we need to understand that Martha wasn’t exactly faulted for her service. She was corrected for that attitude in which she served. Bad attitudes = Bad service in God’s economy. The only way I know to keep the ole attitude right is to allow God to serve us before we serve others. Allow God to minister to you first, and then minister to Him in prayer. Devotion is a two way street.
SINCERELY YOURS,
Chris McQuay
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This post was written by admin on February 10, 2009